Basement Rockstars and Wal-Mart Professionals

I wrote a good portion of music before I started thinking about lyrics.
So then I thought to find lyrics, what does this song make me feel and think about.
Then I started a bunch of lyrical ideas, then finished writing the song, then thought of more lyrical ideas, and then finished putting it all together.
It does have a specific meaning to me, however its meant to be open and hopefully applicable to many things depending on the listener.

Its probably not done yet either as I'm not 100% happy lyrically but its close.


Basement Rockstars and Wal-Mart Professionals

Its weighing on me now
Everything we've lost has now been found
Buts its not the same
These charred remains of bridges
These thoughts that make me livid
Holding back more flames

I wonder how much can we take
Before this cracks in two and breaks
When it all comes crashing down
Will we swim or will we drown?

Its no err
We're now strange

Yes I left you for dead
My only regret is that you made it out alive
I'd rather see us dead, than alive together
In sun or stormy weather
No I won't turn back

And today I'd like to shake
The hands of my worst enemies
And wave goodbye to old friends
Our times come to an end


We've got to raze it up
We've got to raze it up
We've got to raze it up
We've got to raze it up

Public Proclamation of Long Term Plans

Steps are as follows:

1) Some sort of music success be it large or small, I've been doing this too long. Be it on the heals of some shitty acoustic ballad or something I actually dig, I'm going to make this happen.

2) Ride out that for awhile and then get and save whatever money I can.

3) Get an education brewing on an industrial level, get Brooke somewhat formally educated in cooking.

4) Open Marshall's Brewpub and Italian Eatery with Brooke. (which will have a section that can double as a small venue for local music)

5) Enjoy making beer, eating brooke's food, playing music, and life in general.


Short, simple, with a lot of wiggle room while still having a clean plan.
It will happen.

My Theory on Deja Vu

I'll keep it short and sweet, because its rather simple.

People have on average 36 dreams per night. This is 13,140 dreams per year.
All of these dreams are just assembled from random information laying around in your brain.

My theory is that Deja Vu is simply the subconscious recollection of a dream or part of a dream that has distinct similarities to whatever the situation you are experiencing.

Odds are that you'll come up with very realistic dreams, and simply due to quantity of dreams its likely that you'd come up with situations you have yet to experience but are likely to happen.

So thats it: Deja Vu = your brain finding similarities between dreams of your past and your present moment

It could be right, it could be bullshit, I don't care. It makes sense to me.

Filthy Humans

To be human is to struggle between being a beast and being a deity.
Of course it is much easier and immediately fulfilling to be beast-like, but it will always leave you feeling empty eventually.
Being more god-like however is rarely immediately fulfilling and takes a special something to appreciate and receive rewards from.

For me I'll mostly likely stay here in the middle, enjoying the fruits with the beasts while conversing and dreaming with the gods.

Because without that, it wouldn't be a struggle, and then what would the point be?

Job Job Job, Job Job Job-a-ran

Maybe going to an interview today.
Haven't decided since the place has already filled all the higher up positions and only has the low paid positions left. The lower paid positions only pay $9.50 an hour, no fucking way would I take that kind of a cut no matter how much I hate my current job.
I have an interview after work tomorrow as well.

Other shit:
The band is going well, we're writing a bunch of stuff and its a lot different than the previous things.

Brooke started a food blog which is cool and very exciting.
She also dyed her hair this real dark red color. Would. (did/does/will)

Tonight is beer bottling night with Mr Armbruster. Looking forward to that.

We are potentially adopting a dog named Lucy. She's about the same age as Marshall but she's a white american bulldog/boxer mix. I'm quite excited to see what happens with her because her personality description sounds just like Marshalls.

Anyway thats pretty much everything thats going on in my life right now.
I'll post again soon I'm sure.

More news on the job front

I applied for a ton of jobs today (felt like 50, was probably 30).
Using as many outlets as possible.

I haven't gotten any return emails or anything yet but I'm hopeful.
I was smart enough to use my gmail instead of work email this time so I can check these things outside of work.

In other news, I am going to attempt to grow up and not be so selfish.

That is all.

Jobby Job Jobs

Today on December 1st 09, I've been at my job for about 2.6 years now.
Its yielded quite a bit of knowledge and experience, but little to no real benefits otherwise.
As far as money goes, I didn't start making very much. I then got a few raises along with more responsibilities. Eventually I felt my pay to responsibility ratio was way off so I threatened to quit on a day I was rather upset at how things were going.
I then got a 10% or 15% raise. I don't remember for sure.
I think I got a pretty decent bonus that year too.
July of this year I was lucky enough to get a 10% pay cut due to poor sales (the company as whole got this, this wasn't' specific to my job at all).

While I have been applying to jobs the past few months, today I've been blitzing multiple websites and throwing my resume around as much as possible.

I am about to return a call from a place I applied to only a couple hours ago. I'm rather excited about it.
Not that it seems like that much better of an opportunity, but I'm ready to move onto something else.
Even if its 100% lateral.

For some reason, while I'm not too worried whether I get that job or not I am extremely nervous for some reason.
Maybe its because I haven't had any big changes in my life within the past year or two.
Maybe its because it seems like a big company, and big companies I find to be rather intimidating.
Maybe its because I'll land somewhere else and it'll be a grass is greener scenario and I wish I were back where I am now.
All I know is I have no problem working harder if it means more cash in my pocket or less stress at the end of the day.

Anyway I'm gonna go and call that woman back now, wish me luck.